Today there was a work holiday party that I completely forgot about. Naturally, I was unprepared for the activities which required preparation and wasn’t particularly engaged. But my coworkers seemed to have a great time.
To be totally honest — even if I had remembered, I probably wouldn’t have cared anyways. It’s not that I don’t care about the people that I work with — it’s that I don’t care about the forced socialization in that context. I have 2 coworkers that I call my friends and we actively choose to maintain that friendship outside of work.
I used to be so hopeful about befriending all of my coworkers as if work was like college. Not so much anymore. I wonder if that’s because I’ve become cynical over time and stopped putting in the effort, or if that’s always the case.